I feel so numb.

" I wished I couldn't feel anything. Now, I still have a feeling, but most of the feelings I have are so numb (outside) "

I did several mistakes at work a few days ago. Those mistakes made me felt bad, but then I felt so numb, like whatever, that it.

I do not know how did I feel at that time. Outside was so numb and calm, but I knew that inside my body contained a lot of nerves, upset, angriness, and ready to explode at any time.

Let me be frank here... I still have these feelings.

I do not know who I am anymore.

“ If I could go back in time, and visit myself, do you know what I would say to my younger self? I would say, "KILL YOURSELF! LIFE IS NOT WORTH CONTINUING!”

I found this powerful sentence on www.wired.com, and I can understand the feeling he had immediately. I can't explain why because I also can't understand myself. It sounds complicated, but I think I can feel his pain.

Again,

I'm just tired of being alive.

I hope to die soon :)

If he could hear me... Thank you, Benjamin...

Read the full story: https://www.wired.com/2003/02/no-one-asked-why-he-wanted-to-die/