Bipolar attack: Mania & Depression

" I felt so hype but also want to disappear forever."

It has been a week that I have had a bipolar treatment. I felt so hype in the past few days. Everything was so bright, bubbly in my daily life a lot. I did many things at the same time, and most of them are finished perfectly.

When the mania part came out, it was so fantastic somehow. I wanted to do lots of things, get happiness from little things easily ...But the funny part is I still want to die :)

Get hype so high, Get down so low.

“ It took lots of energy to live in mania periods, also lots of pressure when depression comes out.”

I started to feel like I can not control myself anymore. My mood changes extremely, from high to low, and low to high every day. I do not want to see people. I want to stay alone in my room as long as possible...or die at a young age.

I love my mom & dad so much. I do not want to make them sad, but I also tried to live.

There are lots of people that I care. Like, my family, friends, colleagues, and the boss whom I love as much as I love my dad.

However, I was tired.

I really hope to die soon :)