Bipolar attack: Anxiety & Depression

" I got a piece of good news, my depression disorder is turned into bipolar disorder already."

I had a conversation with my psychologist last weekend. It was nice to talk to him about my condition because no one will understand this.

I noticed that I might have bipolar disorder, not just a depression disorder. It is something I notice myself before I decided to go to see a psychologist.

However, the depression seemed to be more outstanding than the other symptoms when I talked with my psychologist. Which is not his fault. You should know that it is a difficult job to deal with abnormal people....like me. You need to talk to them in the right way, not in the way that invites them to death.

Anxiety + Depressions = Bipolar disorder

“ When I was in a good mood, I would be too hype and high like I just smoked weed.”

I did not know when I was in a good mood. I would be too hype and high like crazy. I talked a lot, did many things, and was a little more playful with people sometimes.

Which should be good! Right?

But I feel too tired to be like this. I did not want to be existing, but also have a good mood like someone who needs a spotlight. I HATE TO BE LIKE THIS, but I did not know how to control myself.

No brainer to say that I want to die every day. I was exhausted with those feelings every second that I am breathing.